I wrote this confession because I am rather over getting teased for my love for Disney.
This picture is a very brief description of what I’ve been through this year.
Its about time I write this.
The past two years have been the most difficult of my life, I have experienced pain that I didn’t even know was possible. It was when I began to self harm and become more reckless sinking lower and lower into depression.
I can’t really remember how it started, but I think it was on youtube one night last year and I noticed “The Hunchback of Notre Dame” was uploaded, I remember watching it for the first time since my childhood and thinking “wow this is brilliant”. I also noticed the sense of security and enjoyment I got out of watching something that I was so connected to as a child. So I began looking up more movies, and I began to fall in love with each and every one and guess what? I started to feel happy, really really happy. A feeling that was very hard to come by. So I started to become more obsessive, some may call it unhealthy but when serious shit kept going down I started to reach for my dvds rather than my razors.
When I meet new people or tell friends how much I enjoy these movies some say “that’s cute” others say “those movies are for kids” or others look at me like I’m very stupid and walk away. For those who haven’t watched a Disney movie in a while because they think they’re for children? Have another look, really look and see the themes of death, abduction, abuse, sacrifice and even subtle themes of rape. Watch how these characters get through it, watch how they never give in and keep fighting. Sorry, but I find that inspiring and it gives me hope.
I’ve been teased and taunted over my love for this company, I’ve had friends roll their eyes, bitch and unfollow me on Tumblr because I “post too much Disney stuff” but you know what? I don’t care anymore.
Its your problem if I seem foolish, its your problem if it annoys you.
Tomorrow night is my formal, I am wearing my Disney necklace as my symbol of strength, to show everyone that no matter how much hate I’ve gotten or how much I’m going to get, I have one again fallen in love with the Disney of magic and it is truly a part of me.